Hi, hello, you found me. See them up there? That's me and my family that is. As you can see, we are generally a happy lot. Those boys? Those are Charlie and Jack. My absolute rocks, my little beauts, my funny little jesters, and my teachers. That handsome man in the middle? That, dear readers,... Continue Reading →
Four years ago today we lost our little girl. I thought at the time it would be the hardest and darkest day of my life. It was the first time we heard the words "I'm so sorry, your baby's heart has stopped beating" Our beautiful daughter, our precious first born together, our darling Emily, had... Continue Reading →
This photo was taken on New Years Day. I would never normally have shared it as I have zero make up on and really not looking my best. I wasn’t even going to post anything to social media until we had you safely in our arms. But I look back at this now, completely undoctored,... Continue Reading →
Navigating life after loss was never going to be easy. Navigating life after loss after loss after loss wasn't going to be easy either. We are now a good 3.5 years into this world, tainted by the extraction of innocence. Looking out through an impenetrable glass window at the world I used to belong to.... Continue Reading →
It was such a strange time. One minute I was happily me, then next I was gone. I could describe it as an out of body experience. I know I didn't feel like it was happening to me at all. That day changed me forever. Not only was I mourning the death of our baby... Continue Reading →
The past six weeks.... Have been a mix of pure elation and extreme anxiety. I have kept my head down on social media for fear of blurting out something that we had to keep to ourselves for as long as possible. On the 19th October something happened that I had convinced myself wouldn't, for whatever... Continue Reading →
It has been brought to my attention that I have been a very shit friend, and girlfriend, the past 2.5 years. I don't want to fill this post with excuses. I know I have been so consumed in my grief that I have been completely unable to see out. I guess we are not given... Continue Reading →
I've had this tab open in my browser with the above title for four days now. I have no idea how to begin but I have a huge urge to write. Okay. I'm going to begin by saying I am happy (though that doesn't seem like a strong enough word). Not the happy I... Continue Reading →
A fresh influx of pregnancies. Like buses. They come in droves. Only you don't wait so long between droves. It is pretty much a constant stream. I guess it is the dangers of social media. And being 38. A time when your social circles have babies deliberatly, not the surprises that come when you're in... Continue Reading →
Hey! I'm fine thanks (lies), how are you? Seriously, what is it with that question that makes us reply with our ridiculous default? I always say I'm fine, when in actual fact I am not at all fine. Still hurting and still raw after two years. Still no baby for me to cuddle and kiss... Continue Reading →
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